My hearts gone all a flutter...

Something's not right. Not right at all, I'm sporting one of the dopiest grins ever and my heart is racing. The troubling thing is it's all over nothing! Maybe I should start at the beginning...

For the past year and a bit I harboured the most ridiculous crush on a guy two years above me. He was a drama geek (my favourite type of geek :) ) and I was a silly 15 year old (when it started) just trying not to embarrass myself in front of him at rehearsals. But because of some seriously messed up stuff I had to quit the play I was in with him and I couldn't audition for the next one. However my friend was also in these plays, the two of them became quite close as friends and I'll admit it... it made me so jealous. Anyway, he was going to go to university miles and miles away in September so I decided to get over him. Fast. 

This was until a couple of hours ago when my friend tells me he's in fact going to a university less than a mile away - smile spreads across face. The smile got even bigger when I found out we were going to be auditioning for the same play in a few months time. Ok, I know I'm being silly. He'll never even give me a second look, because why would he? He's s out of my league it's unbelievable. So I wish I didn't feel this excited about it. I mean I'd like just to know him better even if it was as friends because even I know that's all we'll ever be.

If this makes any sense - I'm feeling bad for feeling happy (now there's an oxymoron for you). I really do hate the way the world works sometimes. Don't you?

Please comment :)
All my Love, A Cat named Cat x

Crazy little thing called love.

This is getting ridiculous. Most of you know the tale of 'Lover Boy ' - well there's another one popped out of the woodwork (Or popped up on facebook chat, whatever floats your boat). Lets call this one D, so D is a very shy guy, I don't really talk to him that much at school but he regularly pops up to chat to me. I always chatted back because because that's just what I do and I thought, "Oh he's not such a bad guy". However he still has a personality I couldn't be with and I just don't feel anything for him; Frankly I'm starting to feel guilty and horrible, though why should I? I've never given him ANY encouragement! 

Of course this didn't become such a problem until he suddenly confesses "I love you. More than I think I've loved any girl before." I thought to myself, tell him straight. That's what I did and it worked for a while. Until he started getting really moody with me and we ended up having an argument. I wouldn't have given our tiff a second thought. But he goes and... wait for it... EMAILS MY MOTHER! That's when I finally said "Enough is enough" and I haven't said a word to him since. 


I'm so bad at this! Love and stuff is never meant to be easy but is it really meant to be this messed up? Why don't I like these two guys back? Will I ever find anyone for me? Oh the teenage drama. Any advice? I really need it! Please comment :)

All My Love (oh so that's where my love is going!) , A Cat named Cat x

So, he kind of likes me...

I'm an optimist, which I've found is a rarity for a girl in her late teens but hey, I always try to look and the bright side of life. I've never had a proper boyfriend, which hasn't bothered me because I believe in the 'it'll happen when it happens' mantra however I always assumed if there was a guy who liked me, like... really liked me, I would like him back. Oh how wrong I was! Maybe I should start at the beginning...

I've known the boy for two years now, we get along, always have. He's very over the top though, so I can usually only take him in small, measured doses. He's always shown an interest, I suppose but I thought it was just friendly in all honesty, until this happened...

(After me being a bit clumsy...)

The boy, "you're an idiot you know"

Me, "I know..."

The boy, "you're a beautiful idiot though"

(sweet... it really was)

Since then he's just kept on with his flirting which sometimes just makes me feel REALLY uncomfortable and I never know what to say back and he may have said he kind of loves me. He's sweet enough but I don't think I could date him; I don't know what to do! Hurting his feelings isn't an option in my mind but what else can be done? It was never supposed to happen like this... it was supposed to be like one of those cheesy Taylor Swift songs that I love so much... I'm too much of a romantic, that's my problem. 

Urg! Sorry for the teenage angst! (well not exactly angst but you know...)  Lol but I didn't know what else to write about tonight, it's been a particularly uninspiring day...

What do you all think I should do about my little problem? Please comment even if you don't answer the question! :)

All my Love, A Cat named Cat x