Something's not right. Not right at all, I'm sporting one of the dopiest grins ever and my heart is racing. The troubling thing is it's all over nothing! Maybe I should start at the beginning...
For the past year and a bit I harboured the most ridiculous crush on a guy two years above me. He was a drama geek (my favourite type of geek :) ) and I was a silly 15 year old (when it started) just trying not to embarrass myself in front of him at rehearsals. But because of some seriously messed up stuff I had to quit the play I was in with him and I couldn't audition for the next one. However my friend was also in these plays, the two of them became quite close as friends and I'll admit it... it made me so jealous. Anyway, he was going to go to university miles and miles away in September so I decided to get over him. Fast.
This was until a couple of hours ago when my friend tells me he's in fact going to a university less than a mile away - smile spreads across face. The smile got even bigger when I found out we were going to be auditioning for the same play in a few months time. Ok, I know I'm being silly. He'll never even give me a second look, because why would he? He's s out of my league it's unbelievable. So I wish I didn't feel this excited about it. I mean I'd like just to know him better even if it was as friends because even I know that's all we'll ever be.
If this makes any sense - I'm feeling bad for feeling happy (now there's an oxymoron for you). I really do hate the way the world works sometimes. Don't you?
Please comment :)
All my Love, A Cat named Cat x
Whoa, I was totally in a really similar situation once, up until the point where you found out he'd being going to a school nearby... cute theatre guy, two years older and seemingly out of my league, my friend got close to him, I was jealous, then he went of to college miles away. You shouldn't have to feel bad for feeling excited though! There's no reason you couldn't try and get to know him if you were in the same show together, it looks like you definitely have some common ground and experiences you'd be able to talk about. Maybe you have the perception that he's living in a totally different world than you, but I've often found that barriers that seems to exist between people are often just in your own head... if you want to make friends and get to know him, just do it :)
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