My hearts gone all a flutter...

Something's not right. Not right at all, I'm sporting one of the dopiest grins ever and my heart is racing. The troubling thing is it's all over nothing! Maybe I should start at the beginning...

For the past year and a bit I harboured the most ridiculous crush on a guy two years above me. He was a drama geek (my favourite type of geek :) ) and I was a silly 15 year old (when it started) just trying not to embarrass myself in front of him at rehearsals. But because of some seriously messed up stuff I had to quit the play I was in with him and I couldn't audition for the next one. However my friend was also in these plays, the two of them became quite close as friends and I'll admit it... it made me so jealous. Anyway, he was going to go to university miles and miles away in September so I decided to get over him. Fast. 

This was until a couple of hours ago when my friend tells me he's in fact going to a university less than a mile away - smile spreads across face. The smile got even bigger when I found out we were going to be auditioning for the same play in a few months time. Ok, I know I'm being silly. He'll never even give me a second look, because why would he? He's s out of my league it's unbelievable. So I wish I didn't feel this excited about it. I mean I'd like just to know him better even if it was as friends because even I know that's all we'll ever be.

If this makes any sense - I'm feeling bad for feeling happy (now there's an oxymoron for you). I really do hate the way the world works sometimes. Don't you?

Please comment :)
All my Love, A Cat named Cat x

The things you find...

I have to admit, I've been sleeping in a room that looks more like a bomb site that a bedroom. I just couldn't motivate my self to clean up! Whenever I attempted to I realised "Ooh look, 18 kids and counting is on... I'll just take a little break..." (A little break that went on for infinity and beyond) . Today, however I gave myself a wake up call, I couldn't find anything anymore... the bin bags came out of the cupboard and I hit my room with the force of a hurricane.

Surprising myself with how ruthless I was being, I achieved the result of once again being to see the floor! However in the process I found, Old photographs, An exam timetable I lost the week before my exams and spent the whole time panicking and 'The sound of music' of video (I didn't even know I owned that!). So now, after hours of willing myself to throw things in the bin, an under the bed expedition and hoovering I've finally finished! It's really such a good feeling :)

So, I sit here on my bedroom floor feeling like a very very happy bunny to add to the happiness I just bought a new coat that makes me feel very Audrey Hepburn - esque. I know its not exactly like the one she wore in Breakfast at Tiffany's but it was good enough for me! I love getting new clothes that just make you feel positive as soon as you put them on.

This week just keeps getting better and better. Edinburgh on Wednesday and Beauty and the Beast (tale as old as time...) Rehearsals on Friday :)
This has been a very positive post today, I hope all of you are feeling as happy :) Please comment! (it'll make me even happier...) :)

All My Love, A Cat named Cat x

Well that's something to look forward to!

Though I'm sad that's summer's ending, one of the cure for the end of summer blues is to realise all the awesome things that I have to look forward to in the fall!

• My trip to Edinburgh! I've never been to Edinburgh before and it's supposed to be beautiful and full of history... and shops. 
• Starting Sixth Form! I think this may be quite scary in some respects but I'm more than ready for this new phase in my life, hopefully it'll bring along some new adventures too.
• Beauty and The Beast! Tale as old as time... I've been rehearsing for this since summer began and I cannot wait to perform it in November :)



I love Belle - She's such a bookworm 

• Spring Awakening! - Many of my friends are in an amateur production of Spring Awakening, they've been working so hard on it and I cannot wait to see it.

There are other upsides to Autumn of course such as the sound of the leaves crunching beneath my shoes, the refreshing chill of the morning wind that clears the air and the fun of Halloween. Lets make this Autumn a good one :)

Do any of you have anything your particularly looking forward to in the Autumn? Please comment :) 

All My love, A Cat named Cat x

Desperate Housewives?

The other day I seen this photo of Audrey Hepburn in the kitchen. All dressed up and checking on whatever domestic delight was cooking in the oven. Although I know this photo was probably posed I love the thought of doing the housework all dressed up and looking fabulous (although who could look as fabulous as the ultimate Miss Hepburn!). I really don't think in this day and age it would be much fun to be a housewife but there's something fantastic about the image of a 50's housewife in my opinion. 


I know, I know, it was demeaning and there goal in life was to get the dinner cooked and please their husband but I still can't help thinking that there's something lovely about it. Maybe it's the nostalgia of the decade but I think I'd like to try it just for the day; my hair piled up on my head and hair sprayed to death, in a dress, pearls and rubber gloves. Wow I'm one odd 16 year old :) 

Something tells me Audrey would have made the ultimate domestic goddess too but luckily she gave us all the gift of her magical movies instead... now that's better than baking a cake!


Please comment :)
(thanks for the advice a=on the last post, it really put things in perspective) 
All my love, A Cat named Cat x

Crazy little thing called love.

This is getting ridiculous. Most of you know the tale of 'Lover Boy ' - well there's another one popped out of the woodwork (Or popped up on facebook chat, whatever floats your boat). Lets call this one D, so D is a very shy guy, I don't really talk to him that much at school but he regularly pops up to chat to me. I always chatted back because because that's just what I do and I thought, "Oh he's not such a bad guy". However he still has a personality I couldn't be with and I just don't feel anything for him; Frankly I'm starting to feel guilty and horrible, though why should I? I've never given him ANY encouragement! 

Of course this didn't become such a problem until he suddenly confesses "I love you. More than I think I've loved any girl before." I thought to myself, tell him straight. That's what I did and it worked for a while. Until he started getting really moody with me and we ended up having an argument. I wouldn't have given our tiff a second thought. But he goes and... wait for it... EMAILS MY MOTHER! That's when I finally said "Enough is enough" and I haven't said a word to him since. 


I'm so bad at this! Love and stuff is never meant to be easy but is it really meant to be this messed up? Why don't I like these two guys back? Will I ever find anyone for me? Oh the teenage drama. Any advice? I really need it! Please comment :)

All My Love (oh so that's where my love is going!) , A Cat named Cat x

What we have here, is a failure to communicate

why can't we be like that? 

Good communication is something I generally pride myself on. I'm not afraid of sharing and I like to talk things through and sometimes I just talk to much all together (as my friends know all too well!) . However there's one person I just can't to have a certain type of conversation with without feeling awkward...My Mother. 


I love her more than any thing and we have such a good relationship but I just cannot talk to her about guys or anything in that category! I grew up watching 'Gilmore Girls' with her and I think she wanted us to be that open but when ever I open my mouth to say something it's like there's something sucking the words back in. It makes me sad at times; it really does. 

he is pretty cute <3

I just want to be able to tell her things. I even struggle to say Ooh (insert celebrity name here) is cute.(In my case it would be... ooh Matt Smith <3 )  Seriously what's wrong with me?
Why am I this awkward with her? I'm not like this with anyone else! In fact I'm quite the opposite. Do any of you have communication problems with friends or family? Are you really open with your Mum?
Please comment :)


All My Love, A Cat named Cat x

The Starbucks fascination...

I'll admit, I've never understood the fuss about Starbucks. Like honestly... isn't it only overpriced coffee? Yet everyone around me seems completely content with splashing the cash on it. Now I'm not a Starbuck's hater, I go in now and again, I'm just confused about the level of commitment people seem to have with it. I know it's a pop culture phenomenon as well as a coffee house and yes the cake there is quite nice but I'm not ready to proclaim my love for it in the information section of facebook ( "my life wouldn't be complete with out my daily caramel macchiato" - really though? ) . Though I suppose it's better than people bragging about there GCSE results endlessly. I don't understand some people, I really don't.


(I did think these coffee cups where cool though!)


In other news it was results day yesterday. There was so much build up to it, months upon months of waiting... all to open an envelope and think, yeah... I thought I would get that. I was quite pleased with my grades overall but part of me does wish I could improve some of them which are a tiny bit lower than the rest. Luckily I didn't fail any. So now that's all over and finished with, what's next? Even harder exams next year... woo...


Please comment :)


All my Love, A Cat named Cat x

We're all actors really...

Acting is such an important aspect of my life....

• It lets me explore aspects to myself I never knew I could possess. 
• There is no better escape from a crappy day than to be someone else for a while. 
• It has provided me with invaluable confidence. 
• Plus it's so much fun!

I discovered how much I loved this when I was about nine... the school christmas play. The most prestigious production of.... Snow White and the seven Jockeys. (Yes! Jockeys!) I got to play the part of the Evil Queen (I didn't even considering auditioning for Snow White and instead spent the whole day practising my Wicked Cackle - Weird Child, I know) Since then I haven't been able to shake the acting bug. I doubt I'd ever be able to do it for a living but it's still my number one passion and I love every day I get to do it. 

you'll get frown lines if you keep that up!

In other news it's GCSE results day tomorrow (bites nails...) I hope I've passed! It also means getting a chance to see everyone again all together before school starts (luckily Lover Boy won't be there!) . SO hopefully tomorrow will be a happy one and I can bring you a smiley post. 

What's your passion in life? Anyone else enjoy drama? Please comment :) 

All my love, A Cat named Cat x

Nothing feels as strange as when the leaves begin to change...

Summer's nearly over and I honestly can't quite believe it. I still have so much stuff I need to do, from school shopping to general summer adventures! Why can't I get motivated? I seem to waste my days away sitting here at my lap top and I'm getting a bit sick of it. I want to get active and to become full of the joys of spring (well, summer) but I just don't know how. Everything seems in such a weird little jumble right now, my friends are dreading there GCSE results where as I'm just not even thinking about them, my other friend is totally obsessing about some guy and here I am... floating in space. Just kinda lost you know?

I'll be glad to throw myself back into studying in September in all honesty and focusing on Drama again, I miss acting and hopefully I can start again in the Autumn. Oh and thanks for all the advice on the the boy who wouldn't give up  it helped.... kind of. Then he suggested that we run away and start a new life in Lanzarote. Maybe the ignore him thing isn't working?

Do any of you ever feel in kind of a floaty state... nothings quite settled? And any suggestions about how to handle 'lover boy'? Please comment! :)

All my Love, A Cat named Cat x

I could happily live in a book store.

I've often expressed my love for books in this blog but I have just as equal a love for bookstores! It must sound silly but I love that proper book shop smell, I'm not talking waterstones, more a good a honest independent kind of thing. You can also tend to find really great things in these types of stores which is always a plus and there never at the sky high prices of more commercial places. I could happily live in one. Plus I think there's something very romantic about a small modest bookstore or even a library.  What do you think?

All my Love, A Cat named Cat x

My new musical obsession

Short and snappy post today; I am in love with this new singer/band I discovered on youtube. They do covers of popular songs as well as their own original stuff and I really just can't get enough! Tyler Ward and his band have been on youtube for a while now and I can't understand why they haven't been singed yet, it's better than some of the stuff out there right now and I am officially a fan! Plus Tyler Ward is really cute... thought I'd just slip that in there...

Maybe I am a little old fashioned...

I'll admit it, I love myself some vintage. As much as I love the twenty first century and all the opportunities and technology it brings I just like the nostalgia of the past; the clothes, the music and the simpler life. Nothing makes me happier than staying in on a cold winters night and watching an Audrey Hepburn film or Casablanca.

I've been thinking though, could I have actually lived back then? I really don't think so, there's so many things in my life that I wouldn't have the guts to give up, like the internet and all the positive aspects of our society as it is. Would I enjoy the movies and clothes so much if I had actually been there?

Though if I had some sort of Doctor Who time machine (including the delightful Matt Smith maybe?) I would love to visit...

The early 20's in America - the fun, the flappers and the cool jazz music.

The 50's - it just seems so inviting, I don't know why but I would have loved to see what it was like living the 1950's lifestyle.

The 1960's - THE CLOTHES! I would have loved to see Beatle mania in full swing, the peace movement and the music up close.

If you had a time machine which decade would you want to go back to? Any events? Have you ever thought what it would be like to live in a different time?

All my love, A Cat named Cat x

So, he kind of likes me...

I'm an optimist, which I've found is a rarity for a girl in her late teens but hey, I always try to look and the bright side of life. I've never had a proper boyfriend, which hasn't bothered me because I believe in the 'it'll happen when it happens' mantra however I always assumed if there was a guy who liked me, like... really liked me, I would like him back. Oh how wrong I was! Maybe I should start at the beginning...

I've known the boy for two years now, we get along, always have. He's very over the top though, so I can usually only take him in small, measured doses. He's always shown an interest, I suppose but I thought it was just friendly in all honesty, until this happened...

(After me being a bit clumsy...)

The boy, "you're an idiot you know"

Me, "I know..."

The boy, "you're a beautiful idiot though"

(sweet... it really was)

Since then he's just kept on with his flirting which sometimes just makes me feel REALLY uncomfortable and I never know what to say back and he may have said he kind of loves me. He's sweet enough but I don't think I could date him; I don't know what to do! Hurting his feelings isn't an option in my mind but what else can be done? It was never supposed to happen like this... it was supposed to be like one of those cheesy Taylor Swift songs that I love so much... I'm too much of a romantic, that's my problem. 

Urg! Sorry for the teenage angst! (well not exactly angst but you know...)  Lol but I didn't know what else to write about tonight, it's been a particularly uninspiring day...

What do you all think I should do about my little problem? Please comment even if you don't answer the question! :)

All my Love, A Cat named Cat x

Why does it feel like autumn all ready?

What's going on with the world? I got up today and it looked like an stormy October morning rather than the beginning of a mid august day. I hate the fact summer rolls over so quickly, I've even had to resort to pulling out my autumn wardrobe as a result of the uninspiring temperature! 

Though I must admit, this is one of my favourite autumn outfits mainly because of the tights! Then again I suppose there are some up sides to autumn, the lovely golden leaves and the beautiful way they fall, Halloween, getting to wear boots again. But these things really don't compare to the amazing, warm, sun soaked days of summer... the days I'm not prepared to give up just yet!

I really want to make the most of the rest of the summer but I'm not sure what to do, I've never been the best at curing boredom (except for pulling out a book) . Any suggestions for fun summery activities?

I've also been working on the illusive Serena Van Der Woodsen hair... still no impressive result yet but we're getting there! Watching Gossip Girl on repeat is helping, well sort of, when I can turn my attention away from Chace Crawford.

How are you filling in your summer? What's your favourite summer activity? Please comment! :)

All my love, A Cat named Cat x

Funny how it rained all day

Hello again, I've returned from bonny Scotland in one piece! It was quite a good trip although I spent most of the time with my nose stuck in a book, which is fortunate considering I packed nearly as many as in the picture to take with me. One of the best that I took was 'The year I turned sixteen' by Diane Schwemm. I couldn't tear myself away! The plot followed four sisters (though four different sections of the book) and each narrated what happened the year they turned sixteen. It had me smiling, laughing and crying; I'm so glad I picked it up even if was only because the cover looked nice!


Other highlights of the trip included the thrill of finding shelter from the numerous rain storms and an oddly hot day at the beach (which we had to dash of after two hours because of an unexpected downpour - best of both worlds really) . There was also the trips to a small farm shop just down the road from where we were staying, it was rather miniscule but lovely... and there was also the matter of the extremely gorgeous boy who worked there who kept me going back. Though I think he may have caught on in all honesty, after I went in for the third time, looked at the same stuff without buying anything and left. Well, I really didn't need anymore organic orange juice.

I'm glad to be back to civilisation though with all the interruptions that come with internet access and mobile phone signal... and my blog of course :)

Have any of you ever read 'the year I turned sixteen' and what's been your favourite summer read so far?

All my love, a Cat named Cat x

Vintage Paris

I want to wear pretty vintage clothes and pretend to be Audrey Hepburn in Paris. That is what I want. I would like to forget about mobile phones, facebook and twitter and run through the Parisian streets in the rain with a broken umbrella and run into a beautiful man who will fix it for me. Or sit in a tiny Parisian cafe and sip my coffee while getting lost in my new book. Ok... maybe it's seems a bit impossible but I girl can dream can't she?

Sometimes I truly wish I could just escape back to the 1950's for a day, just to see what it was like. Maybe track down Miss Hepburn and see her in the flesh... ah the possibilities. Though I would also settle for a trip to modern day Paris, it looks so romantic and magical, like something out of a book. But unfortunately Paris isn't on the horizon yet... Scotland is though. So I'm going to be going quiet for the next 5 days while my body will be in Scotland but my head will truly be in Paris... won't that look odd :)



Anyone been to Paris? Is it as magical as it seems?

See you next week when I'm rescued from the wilderness.

All my love, A Cat named Cat x

Because I want Serena Van Der Woodsen's hair.

There are many things I wish for in this life; an unlimited book budget, a danish pastry with just the right amount of icing and for snow every christmas. But if there's one thing I truly do long for it is the hair of Gossip Girl's Serena Van Der Woodsen . I've always been a fan of the character both in the fabulous books and the TV series but I'm a super fan of long, wavy, blonde and at times completely unkempt hair. Now, it seems a very easy thing to achieve... yeah right. I've had several failed attempts at this style and I'm beginning to think it may just be Blake Lively who can actually pull it off. So I'm making one last resort..... Dear Santa, I've been a very good girl this year, so maybe on christmas morning I could wake up with blonder hair in Van Der Woodsen Style? Yes?


Hmm, maybe a bit too much to ask but it was worth a try! Are you a gossip girl fan? Books or TV... who's your favourite character?

Very shallow post today, I promise something of more substance later.

All my love, a Cat named Cat x

Would you like to see that in 3D? NO!

So lately it's been hard to miss the signs of "new and better" technology on the horizon. First it was HD! Everyone went HD mad when at first a great number of us even knew what HD even meant now we're onto tri colour tellys because we've never experienced blue like it! (apparently...) . However one of the most obvious new trends is the 3D film craze. Now, call me old fashioned but I don't want to go to the cinema to sit with silly glasses on to see cars flying towards me. Now I do appreciate the thrill factor, the new cinematic experience that having a flailing piece of virtual metal hurled towards you can bring but come on, lets not let this take over our cinemas!

The cinema experience should remain as classic as it does modern. The quiet intimate experience like in a brief encounter... Ok yes, I realise I'm severely romanticising things but would we have liked to have seen the train pulling out of the station with our monstrous glasses on just for the thrill of it? And how would anyone share a natural back row kiss with those things in the way? Lets be practical guys. Classic Cinema will never get old.

How could you resist a classic cinema kiss? 

All my love, A Cat named Cat x

 

Empire State Of Mind

I have seen, heard and read about so many interpretations of one of the greatest city's on earth; New York. For example the rich kids of the upper east side in Gossip Girl where luxury drips from every bendels bag and the city is their ultimate play ground. The best of the best is displayed. The best of Manhattan (Central Park, the Met, Fifth Avenue) and the best of Brooklyn (Arts Cafe's and Mr Dan Humphrey) it all has a magical air about it that just makes me want to hop on a plane! 

Then there's the city (all be it, the city in the 1950's) through Holden Caufield's eyes. In 'The Catcher in the rye' the character of Holden portrays New York as a cold, dark and dangerous city of sin. A place without innocence where no one can be trusted and there's an almost fake edge to the beautiful parts of town. Though this is partially because of Holden's isolated state of mind it still makes me think in a city that big where one person really counts for nothing, it could be a terrifying place to be. (By the way if you've never read the catcher in the rye, I strongly recommend it!) 

Finally, a song that regularly plays  on my ipod. Empire State Of Mind (part one and two!) is so full of the inspiration New York can give someone. The dreams, the confidence but also how it can swallow you and spit you out. So from what I can tell New York is a city of many faces, both inspirational and devastating. I hope I get to find out for myself one day. Have you ever been to NYC? What were your experiences? Please comment!

"These streets will make you feel brand new,

big lights will inspire you, 

lets hear it for New York, New York, New York!" 

All my love, A Cat named Cat x

They don't think what they say before they open their mouths..

I love Eliza Doolittle's song 'Pack up' in fact I think it's brilliant! It has become my instant "cheer up life's not that bad!" song. Pack up got me thinking today; a lot of us spend so much time thinking about what other people think of us, the way we look, things we like, the things listen to and even the way we dress. For one I think it's ridiculous. Can we not just enjoy our lives without worrying about scrutiny from the outside world? I am past the point of caring what people think about my taste in music and my opinions. Just live your life without worrying about it... In fact just.....

    "Pack up your troubles in you old kit bag and bury them beneath the sea. 

CAUSE I DON'T CARE WHAT THE PEOPLE MAY SAY WHAT THE PEOPLE MAY SAY,

WHAT THE PEOPLE MAY SAY ABOUT ME.

Pack up you're troubles in your old kit bag don't worry bout the cavalry.

I DON'T CARE WHAT THE WHISPERS SAY CAUSE THEY WHISPER TOO LOUD FOR ME "

Just a quick post today,  I hope you liked it though.

All my Love, A Cat named Cat x